Persimmon

Sweet, with an edible skin and cantaloupe textured inside. Very yummy!  It looks like a tomato, but don’t be deceived, it is nothing of the sort!

Dried Papaya

I’ve had papaya before, it’s a really big ass fruit — but HONEY DIPPED PAPAYA SPEARS. I was skeptical, but they weren’t even all dried out and chewy! Tasted like gummy bears. A wonderful find in the dried fruits’ section!

Both of these were found in Mitsuwa Supermarket in Edgewater, New Jersey.

This is just a list that all moms, teachers, counselors, adults, whatevers should relay to young girls for better self esteem.

-Rachel Weisz
-Scarlett Johansson (ick)
-Kate Winslet
-Jessica Biel
-Eva Mendes
-Jennifer Lopez
-Britney Spears (surprisingly)
-Drew Barrymore <3
-Cameron Diaz (YES, she’s thin, but not disordered and bullshit)
-Lily Allen
-Christina Aguilera (had baby, natural thin still, no ED problems)
-America Ferrera
-Liv Tyler
-Beyonce
-Catherine Zeta-Jones
-Fergie
-Mariah Carey
-Penelope Cruz
-Kirsten Dunst (naturally thin)
-Hilary Duff
-Kim Kardashian (pending)
-Salma Hayek
-Natalie Portman
-Rihanna
-Kelly Osborne
-Uma Thurman (Kill Bill, very FIT)

I will update this post later and make it spiffy.

160 pounds (or so she says) ————> 200!

I feel sorry for Oprah.  Her ratings are down, she has emotional eating problems/has been struggling with her weight for MANY years, and she’s pretty much in a rut.

But ugh, I can’t relate to any of this — I tend to not look at Oprah and think of her weight.  She’s just OPRAH.  She’s just a GODDESS, you know.  For once, weight is not an issue!

Just give her a break!

When the government, excuse my language, fucks you over for being a minority of some nature, who have you got to blame?

How about a government coined term? “We the people” sound fair? So, Minority, blame the people!

You see, that’s wrong. While the “majority” voted your rights away for some strange reason, that doesn’t mean that the individual that’s sitting next to you directly inflicted these laws/restrictions on you.

You can’t be angsty with every person that you meet! It wouldn’t be fair, and think of it this way — most likely that person that you’re lashing out at for being what you think of as “the least persecuted out there” (white male) is still fighting for his liberties, as well. While his woes may not exceed your own, it is not HIS fault, individually, that these laws were inflicted on you.

Some laws that may be unnoticed for persecuting “less blatant” minorities include drug laws, certain taxes, handicapped/disabled health care, welfare, et cetera. Keep in mind that there is not one human being in this “land of the free” that has not struggled with their liberty at one point in their lives.

So, when you get down in the dumps, just think that everyone’s lives suck because of -dum dum dum dum- UNCLE SAM! -does a dance-

Death and taxes, death and taxes, death and taxes! Great life!

“Mama always said . . . “

Yes, MAMA raised me well.  My mother may be a sadistic, scary, angry, bipolar woman, but man, SHE RAISED ME to be MANNERLY and proper to every extent of every law of ettiquette.  No, you wouldn’t believe it when you look at me, because yes, sometimes I slack on the manners, but there are a few that I believe are common, easy to follow, and should be taken into account by every human being.  This list doesn’t require you to pull out the chair for your date or tip 50 percent at restaurants.

These are the basics (in no order of importance).

1. Hold door open, thank someone for doing so, be courteous and respectful in that sense.  Do not slam the door in someone’s face.  Do not close the door when there is someone RIGHT behind you.
2. Chew with your mouth closed.  Do not smack your lips.  Do not CHEW loud.  I wholeheartedly enjoy my food (even crunchy, obnoxious food) and keep it to a minimum.  For instance, I eat an apple, and YES, it crunches, but that’s acceptable.  But when you chew, don’t smoosh it and slosh it and SMACK your mouth all over.  Seriously.  This is easy.  Clean out your ears and listen to how disgusting you sound!  And do not gulp your drinks unless you just ran a few miles, man.  Just don’t be a glutton.
3. Clean up after yourself.  Don’t leave dirty dishes sitting around/don’t throw toilet paper on the floor/use common sense!
4. Walk on the right side of the street.  Just to makes things EASIER.
5. “Excuse me,” “You’re welcome,” “Thank you.”  USE THEM OFTEN.
6. Remember: You are no better then anyone else — so don’t act that way!
7. Always tell someone how you feel — don’t talk and scheme behind their backs.  You wouldn’t like it if someone talked about you, now would you?  Chill with the gossip — unless it’s harmless.  Do unto other’s . . . “the Golden Rule.”
8. Watch your mouth.  You never know who you’re offending when you blab mindlessly about sensitive topics — and a great example would be perhaps making fun of Buddha’s weight in front of a Buddhist.  You get it.
9. Do not interrupt someone who is speaking!  No cutting off!  Always respect what a person says!  Wait until they are done speaking and then attack them in debate!
10. Ask for clarification PROPERLY.  No “HUH” “WHAT” “HAR” “EH”.  Instead, how about an “Excuse me?” or a “Sorry?”

I’ve got two copies of books of etiquette — one for women and one for men.  Actually, my boyfriend’s got the man one.  ;D  Tell me if you need to borrow ‘em.

Alright, I’ve been having trouble finding a good salad now-a-days, but here are some tips that I picked up.

1) SCREW CHAINS.  Saladworks, Au Bon Pain — BLAH.  Terrible.  Hardly any salad at all.  OR TOPPINGS.  It’s all about the bread.  If you like bread, go for it.

2) Quiznos is great.  Subway (haven’t tried it yet).  Looks bigger than Saladworks for a cheaper price though.

3) Look for pizza places or ethnic take out places.  Portions will be huge.  You will get a good salad.  I’ve been surprised at every salad that I’ve gotten from crappy college pizza shops.  HUGE.  And yummy.  Do not be fooled because it doesn’t look like an advertisement for “Stuff White People Like” (Hm, overpriced shit).

4) Do not be afraid to ask.  “HEY, um, can you put less of that tortilla chip garbage and give me broccoli instead?”  Especially at restaurants.  THEY ARE THERE TO SERVE YOU.  I know this from being a waitress.  They will do anything in their power to get your food right for a good tip.

5) Check out the sides for a salad add in.  Say you just order the garden salad.  Boring, right?  You look at the sides.  Grilled veggies?  Sauteed mushrooms and peppers?  YUM!  It’s amazing now!

And my number one tip . . . drum roll . . . get ready . . .

!MAKE YOUR OWN SALAD!

Seriously.  Go out.  Buy a large tupperware.  Start working on recipes.  Get your own salad, toppings and dressing.  You can do it!  And you can save money!

And make sure to follow the other tips when you’re not in the mood/forget to make your own salad (I “forget” all the time.  )

My favorite salad. Buffalo chicken.

I feel like the Christmas spirit is dead.

Is it my age?

Or is it a sign of the times?

I don’t know!  I feel like there is no joy without a family.  There are no stockings to be stuffed.  No food to turmoil over making for dinner.  No advent calendars.  No light up manjor with little figurines to set up.  No tree, even!  Not even a string of tinsel or a scrap of garland.

When I go shopping, it’s all old.  There are no new products that I have my eye on to buy.  Remember the Tickle-Me-Elmo craze?  Where’s the T.-M.-E. of our generation?

I seem to have it all.  Every piece of technology ever invented, clothes, books, purses, accessories, EVERYTHING, I’ve got it.  I suppose I should be asking for things that are important for survival — food, money, kitchen devices — but nothing for pleasure.

I don’t know.  I feel like when I was younger, the joy of seeing Santa Claus at the mall was the highlight of the post-Thanksgiving shopping hysteria — Black Friday, Returns Saturday (ha), Santa, mad crowds, delicious foods, preparations, decorating the tree . . . now it’s a “work full time” schedule, all the way until Christmas Eve, and then expect to be prepared and ready for Christmas.  It doesn’t work.

I always remember my parents being very lackadasical about Christmas, while I was always completely excited.  Then again, my parents are different than most.  Now, I feel like I am the parent, the old timer, not too enthused about the holiday.  But is it my age or just my environment?  Would I be more excited if I was in a family environment again, rather than a “party until you drop” college environment?

But as a completely neutral party, I feel like the entire WORLD is less enthusiastic about the holidays — less decorations, less Santas, less goodies, less cheer (give me Christmas Eve OFF without a fight, for God’s sake, it’s THE HOLIDAYS), more economy worries, more jobless Americans, more shit, in general.  Again, this could be a product of my environment, because Philadelphia is littered with poor, angry folk, while my hometown is usually white, suburban middle class types (who are comfortable in their living arrangements and can afford a good holiday).

I don’t know.  Christmas is tomorrow.  When did it get so close?  I don’t even remember choosing that I would spend the holiday with my boyfriend and his family.  It was pretty sudden (in my mind), for it’s a ludacris idea (for me, at least) to spend CHRISTMAS with another family (all the traditions!  Will I ruin them?).  Alas, I am on my way to Maryland now, and I’m feeling weird.  Will it all be OK?  Will I be welcome?  Hopefully Christmas won’t be too depressing, and I will accept that I am a welcome new member of my boyfriend’s family, and I am not an infiltrater.

Sitting in the car, gorging myself on pizza (oh, such a festive holiday treat), and feeling antsy for eating so much, I wonder if I am starting to really reach adulthood.  I sometimes act like a child, with fits of depression, anger, worry, anxiety, et cetera, but I suppose that since I am getting older, I should surpass this.  Older people get MATURE depression and CRY ALONE instead of open and about “being fat.”  I’m stuck as a 14 year old, with pubescent problems that should be far behind me.  I’m still a child.  When will I grow up past this?  Realize what is important in life?  When will I get away from anti-depressants that just make it worse, restrictive dieting, constant worrying . . . ?

Maybe I’ve hardly enjoyed this “holiday season” because I am working full time/have these problems — maybe I’m lacking the family environment — maybe I’m getting old — maybe the economy and the current state of the world is to blame.  Merry Christmas.  Whatever.

http://www.drexel.edu/sustainability/projects/default.asp

These are not buildings.

They are space ships.

I plan on launching out into space in 2012 when the world ends.  This will be when I am a graduate, so maybe I’ll get a spot to safety.

Damn Drexel.  So smart, savvy, and futuristic!

Ground control to Papadakis.

Greetings,
I just wanted to do a little recap of my lovely fall term for my adoring fans who may have lost touch with Stacy.
I went back to Drexel, moved into ASA, “live” with Tyler, thought it was OK.
Complications, of course, along with my mental instability, fucked me all up for quite some time (probably more than half the term).
I went to Drexel counseling.  Sucked.  She didn’t understand a lot of my problems/didn’t refer me to the eating disorder specialist/wasn’t the  best, overall.  I told her I used to have just eating disorder related depression/anxiety, but since birth control, the depression/moods have spread into a separate sector.  She didn’t get this, for she didn’t even speak English.  Whatever.
At this point, I just wanted some pill that I could take and be better.
I went to the Drexel Health Center, explained my life story (again), and I am now getting treatment and what not (pills).
I’ve let my eating disorder run rampant again for the first time in 4 years — thanks to Evan Rosen telling me how fat that I’ve gotten while I was working about a month ago.  I have been trying to burn off as many calories as I eat per day since that point, coming in at a flat ZERO every day.  For a month.  Starting to go a little crazy, but the results are showing.  I wish that he would have known that calling me fat was the biggest trigger EVER (especially to an ED’d person) and he is going to Hell for saying it.  I plan on stopping this starvation nonsense for New Year’s, but working hard to MAINTAIN.
I just found out last night as I was drifting off to Sleep Land that I have to move in ASA.  Downstairs (there goes my stair exercise).  Can I just be left alone peacefully in a housing situation that I do not want in the first place?  No, of course not.  Prozac is making me not care, but principles are making me think a little.  Just another “fuck my life” situation, you know?  Just leave me be.  Why must I be chosen for this task (I’m no Frodo).
I started going to Student Liberty Front meetings and fell in love with it.  It’s definitely for me — and I want to put myself out there for being a future advocate and educator.
I voted in the elections for Obama.  Boo.  I know.  Criticize me or love me for it.  I wish that the democrats weren’t SO FUCKING ANNOYING during the whole election, but whatever.  They really wanted him to be the next president.  I wish that they could see the truth — but they’re so hung up on giving their hard earned money to people who don’t deserve it or something . . . I don’t know . . . Oh yeah, republicans suck, too.  Hm.  I wonder what “party” would be the best for everything.  -cough cough-
Ah, but alas, all of our life stories are that of challenges.  No one’s lives are perfect, and that’s pretty much the only driving force that I have to live off of, now-a-days.  But, of course, I have to be dating the only human being that I know who virtually lives his life “problem free,” the complete opposite of myself, but I’m glad that he’s finally starting to see the world as a pretty fucked up place (HE SEES THE LIGHT).
Bring on the future.

When Drexel is not in session.  When there should be no kids on campus.

Maybe I will write a book.

“Ramblings,” by Stacy Litz.

Ha!